I watched this video by Connor Franta the other day and it's all I've been thinking about since. He lists off different emotions and connects a memory or a certain point in his life to them. I thought it would be a great idea to put my experiences to it, so thank you Connor for the idea!
Happy
I think the past year has probably been the most happy I've ever been, I've kicked my self confidence issues in the backside and I'm finally getting my life back on track. I've been a lot happier in myself the past year or two which makes my outlook on everything else happier too.
Another thing I get happy about is travelling, I've only been out of the UK once, and I'd love to go more but the UK has some really beautiful places, and it sounds really sad but I tear up if I see something amazing when I'm on my travels, whether it's a stunning sunset or just beautiful scenery it makes me cry - with happiness of course!
Sad
I think the most sad I've been was from the ages of 16 to 18. This was at a time where I felt really sad and anxious and I just hated everything about myself. Plus this was the time of GCSE's and A-Level's and I was always scared of showing any of my work to people. I always compared it to others and I managed to convince myself that I was awful at everything because my work was different to everybody else's.
Angry
I'm not really an angry person, I just sort of let everything flow over my head instead of getting angry over it. That being said I was angry at myself growing up, angry because I was shy all the time and I wouldn't talk to anybody unless it was my best friend or a few close family members. I was angry that I couldn't find it in me to make new friends or talk to anybody. I'm a ton better at talking to new people now though, hooray!
Jealous
I'm a jealous person, I always have been. I was always jealous if somebody was paying more attention to everybody else rather than me, I can say that that doesn't happen anymore which is a good thing. I realised that other people actually have lives too! I am jealous of what other people have now though, whether it's materialistic or a career etc. I don't necessarily think that's a bad thing anymore, because it makes me work harder to get what I want.
Afraid
I get scared over the tiniest things, honestly make me watch the scariest horror film in the world in the pitch black and I would be fine, but if there is a spider in the room I'd run out and make somebody get rid of it and if I had to speak to a group of people even if there was only 3 of them, I would be terrified because all of their eyes would be on me. I really need to get better at stuff like that.
Relaxed
The most relaxed I ever am is when I'm on holiday in Barmouth. Sure it's not the best place in the world, but when I'm sitting on the beach watching the sun set every night it's pretty amazing. It's probably just the sunset and the sea and not Barmouth itself, but it clears my mind and makes me the most relaxed I've ever been, it's incredible.
Excited
I get excited over little things all the time, like new music, new films, going to gigs, stuff like that. But the last time I think I was really excited was just before my London trip last year. It was my first ever time going on holiday without parents and it was my first ever time visiting the city itself rather than passing through the outskirts and I couldn't contain my excitement. I was excited for the whole trip and I can't wait to go back again this year.
So that's it for today's post, I really enjoyed writing this so I hope you all enjoyed reading this!